22/04/2010

  • Listening Prayer

    Dear One,

    Your disappointment in yourself does not hinder my work in and through you. 
    Your expectations do not limit my grace.
    Your fears do not hamper my love.

    My mercy, my grace and my love grow within your heart, mind and body daily. My work in your spirit is ongoing and multifaceted.

    My hand not only guides but comforts, heals and directs.

    You needn't do more, know more or be more to win my approval.

    Recline into my care...
    Relax in my presence...
    Retreat into my all embracing tenderness.

    Find restoration in my joy. Savor my definition of wholeness. Your willingness to obey is my delight.

    amen

08/04/2010

  • "The Victory of Resurrection" by Richard Rohr

    "The Victory of Resurrection" by Richard Rohr

    The voluntary self-gift of Jesus was his free acceptance of all creation - even in its weakness and imperfection. He chose to become brother to humanity, and by giving himself to God totally, he invites all of his brothers and sisters with him in that same relationship.

    Jesus thus proclaims and celebrates the universal Motherhood and Fatherhood of God. The raising up of Jesus is God's confirmation of his relationship. Jesus becomes our Promise, our Guarantee, our Victory!

    In the Resurrection Jesus passes from individual bodiliness to total presence. Matter has thus become spirit - which is boundless, limitless, shareable and communicable. "'As the Father sent me, so am I sending you.' After saying this he breathed on them and said: 'Receive the Holy Spirit'" (John 20:21-22).

    Thus the victory worked out in Jesus becomes power (the Spirit) whereby Jesus is universally available. Our opening to this love-power is faith. He died, and we arose! We cannot free ourselves.

    We can only be set free by the love of another.

    Jesus is totally set free only by the love of the Other! Amazingly, this faith-surrender does not destroy the self or individuality, but it actually creates it and recreates it. For the highest form of self-possession is the capacity to give oneself.

    from unpublished sermon notes

19/03/2010

  • my happy, happy birthday!

    Thanks to the Blackard  Family... Last week I enjoyed a delicious birthday! Homemade ham and fresh pineapple pizza and bittersweet chocolate enrobed orange pound cake with orange ganache filling and candied zest around the candle! From "The Shop"... yum! Does life get better than this? We watched "Funny Face" together... ah the earnest joy of Audrey Hepburn! Picts to follow!

25/02/2010

  • "Confession" by Richard Rohr

    "Confession" by Richard Rohr

    Confession is not just for the confessional. Sometimes, maybe even more often, it needs to be done with a wife, husband, child, friend - someone who has the power to recognize and receive the sinner. What is not received is not redeemed: That's the principle of redemption, as far as I'm concerned. Redemption isn't experienced until the wound is received, until the hole in the soul - the weakness within that shows the way out - is recognized and somewhere looked at and named exactly for what it is. In jail we try to talk without euphemisms and niceties: Don't say the money got stolen; say, I stole the money. Take responsibility. Your mother hurt you, your father didn't love you, we all know that. Now will you take personal responsibility for what you did? The sense of personhood that comes from truthfulness is immense. It's the sacred no, the ability to say no to the false self. That gives one a sense of having boundaries, of knowing what is part of oneself and what isn't. Until a person can do that there is an endless, amorphous kind of personality without dignity or self-respect. Good morality provides good boundaries and good identity.

    from Breathing Under Water: Spirituality and the 12 Steps by Richard Rohr

  • "Confession" by Richard Rohr

    "Confession" by Richard Rohr

    Confession is not just for the confessional. Sometimes, maybe even more often, it needs to be done with a wife, husband, child, friend - someone who has the power to recognize and receive the sinner. What is not received is not redeemed: That's the principle of redemption, as far as I'm concerned. Redemption isn't experienced until the wound is received, until the hole in the soul - the weakness within that shows the way out - is recognized and somewhere looked at and named exactly for what it is. In jail we try to talk without euphemisms and niceties: Don't say the money got stolen; say, I stole the money. Take responsibility. Your mother hurt you, your father didn't love you, we all know that. Now will you take personal responsibility for what you did? The sense of personhood that comes from truthfulness is immense. It's the sacred no, the ability to say no to the false self. That gives one a sense of having boundaries, of knowing what is part of oneself and what isn't. Until a person can do that there is an endless, amorphous kind of personality without dignity or self-respect. Good morality provides good boundaries and good identity.

    from Breathing Under Water: Spirituality and the 12 Steps by Richard Rohr

21/02/2010

  • "Grace" by Richard Rohr

    "Grace" by Richard Rohr

    God's love is total, unconditional, absolute and forever. The state of grace - God's attitude toward us - is eternal. We are the ones who change. Sometimes we are able to believe that God loves us unconditionally, absolutely and forever. That's grace! And sometimes because we get down on ourselves, and carry guilt and fear and burdens, we are not able to believe that God loves us. Biblically, that's the greatest sin: not to believe the good news, not to accept the unconditional love of God. When we no longer believe God loves us, we can no longer love ourselves. We have to allow God to continually fill us. Then we find in our own lives the power to give love away.

    from The Great Themes of Scripture by Richard Rohr

19/02/2010

  • Home Sweet Home 2010

    From No. 04, Street 12, Phnom Penh

    Where to begin... How to tell you about my big step forward?

    As I have become more confident here and as my joy at work and new friendships continue to deepen, a decision was made. I decided to step out and get a place of my own. The Cambodian owner lives in Ho Chi Min City, Vietnam and will immigrate to Canada soon. He is in town to celebrate Chinese New Year. I spoke with him and his wife this afternoon, I hope to visit them in Vietnam before their summer trip to Ontario/Quebec. His sister and brother-in-law with be their property managers.

    On Feb 3 I looked at this place about a 20 min walk from work, or, in my case, a 5 minute scooter (Vespa) ride. I've had leads on other situations and looked at one but each fell through or wasn't suitable.  This seems a very good fit... and at each turn seems better and better!

    I want a place people can visit easily... Robyn and Mom... no more guest houses for you!  I have a couple of Canadian girl-friends coming in May, an auntie coming in June, and hopefully former co-workers from Taipei, now in America, will be able to come this year too. In December friends from England may be winging their way to my corner of the world!  I want to share the wonders of this place with my circles of friends and family.

    It is situated close to the airport... just off a main road into town... I will be moving in Feb 27. A colleague from another NGO may be moving into one of the smaller rooms... she's looking for a week-end pied-à-terre. It would be delightful to have some constant company, yet a guesthouse is good too.

    Tomorrow I'm going to a "Garage Sale"... I'm hoping it will be fun to play house! Bonika, my current host's niece, said she would help me set up my kitchen and keep me in a $200 budget... she said this would include a fridge. I'll be sure to take picts to let you know how far we can stretch this kitchen assembly budget!

    I look forward to many visitors... Do you wanna visit?  I'll give you the friends and family rate... !

15/02/2010

  • On Fasting and Praying in Secret by Ron Rolheiser

    On Fasting and Praying in Secret by Ron Rolheiser

    2010-02-07

    The philosopher, David Hume, once made a distinction between something he called as genuine virtues and something he termed monkish virtues. Genuine virtues, he said, were those qualities inside us that are useful to others and ourselves. Monkish virtues, on the other hand, are qualities that don't enhance human life, either for society or for the particular person practicing them. As monkish virtues he lists, celibacy, fasting, penance, mortification, self-denial, humility, silence, and solitude. These, he attests, contribute nothing to society and even detract from human welfare. For this reason, he affirms, they are rejected by "men of sense". For a religious person, this isn't easy to hear.

    But what follows is even harsher. Those practicing monkish virtues pay a stiff price, he says, they are excluded from health and human community: The gloomy, hare-brained enthusiast, after death, may have a place in a calendar, but will scarcely be admitted, when alive, into intimacy and society, except by those who are as delirious and dismal as himself.

    As brutal as this may sound, it contains a healthy warning, one with a discernible echo to what Jesus said when he warned us to fast in secret, to do our private prayer in secret, to not put on gloomy faces when we are practicing asceticism, and to make sure our piety is not too evident in public. If Jesus is clear about anything, he's clear about this.

    Why? Why should we avoid all public display of our fasting, ascetical practices, and private prayer?

    Partly Jesus' warning is against hypocrisy and insincerity, but it is more. There is also the question of what we are radiating and of how we are being perceived. When we display asceticism and piety in public, even if we are sincere, what we want to radiate and what is read by others (and not just by the David Humes of our world) are often two different things. We may want to be radiating our faith in God and our commitment to things beyond this life, but what others easily read from our attitude and actions is lack of health, lack of joy, depression, disdain for the ordinary, and a not-so-disguised compensation for missing out on life.

    And this is precisely the opposite of what we should be radiating. All monkish virtues (and they are real virtues) are intended to open us to a deeper intimacy with God and so, if our prayer and asceticism are healthy, what we should be radiating is precisely health, joy, love for this world, and sense of how the ordinary pleasures of life are sacramental.

    But this isn't easy to do. We don't radiate faith in God and health by uncritically accepting or cheerleading the world's every effort to be happy, nor by flashing a false smile while deep down we are barely managing to keep depression at bay. We radiate faith in God and health by radiating love, peace, and calm. And we can't do this by radiating a disdain for life or for the way in which ordinary people are seeking happiness in this life.

    And that's a tricky challenge, especially today. In a culture like ours, it is easy to pamper ourselves, to lack any real deep sense of sacrifice, to be so immersed in our lives and ourselves so as to lose all sense of prayer, and to live without any real asceticism, especially emotional asceticism. Among other things, we see this today in our pathological busyness, our inability to sustain lives of private prayer, our growing incapacity to be faithful in our commitments, and in our struggles with addictions of all kinds: food, drink, sex, entertainment, information technology. Internet pornography is already the single biggest addiction in the whole world. Prayer and fasting (at least of the emotional kind) are in short supply. The monkish virtues are more needed today than ever.

    But we must practice them without public exhibitionism, without disdaining the good that is God-given in the things of this world, without hinting that our own private sanctity is more important to us and to God than is the common good of this planet, and without suggesting that God doesn't want us to delight in his creation. Our asceticism and prayer must be real, but they must radiate health, and not be a compensation for not having it.

    And that, a health that witnesses to God's goodness, is exactly what I see in those who practice the monkish virtues in a healthy way. Prayer and fasting, done correctly, radiate health to the world, not disdain. Had David Hume witnessed Jesus' health and love inside his prayer and asceticism, he would, I suspect, have written differently of monkish virtue.

    So we need to take more seriously Jesus' words that asceticism and private prayer are to be done "in secret", behind closed doors, so that the face we show in public will radiate health, joy, calm, and love for the good things that God, whom prayer and asceticism brings us closer to, has made.

14/02/2010

  • "Take Up Your Cross" by Richard Rohr

    "Take Up Your Cross"

    The phrase "Take up your cross" has been softened by usage. We've all heard it since we've been kids; we don't get the punch of it anymore. The cross is not simply enduring your hangnail for the day for the love of Jesus, or putting up with the inconvenience that your air conditioner doesn't work. That's what it's become in affluent societies.

    The "cross" in the New Testament is precisely the suffering that comes into our lives by the choices we make for the Kingdom. In that sense it is always optional and voluntary. In other words, maybe I can't take this defense-industry job, which would allow my family to live with greater security and greater comfort. My conscience says, "No. I do not want to build weapons for the rest of the my life. I have to pay the price for that."

    We recognize the absolute and everything else becomes relative, including the economic and political systems. We proclaim that God is Lord, and therefore everything else is not lord. That's where the Kingdom proclamation relativists all of reality. If Jesus is Lord, then America is not lord. The Pentagon is not lord. The gross national product and economic development are not lord. Whiteness, neighborhood, culture, gender and denomination -all are not lord.

    I constantly meet good Catholics whose actual doctrine is the lordship of American institutions. They say, "Don't knock the fee enterprise system. Don't knock capitalism. Don't knock the military-industrial complex." Our religious doctrines have often been allowed to become the smokescreen for our real doctrine: our privileged position. Christ is too often a cover for our de facto allegiance to Caesar.

    from Letting Go: A Spirituality of Subtraction by Richard Rohr

  • Happy Valentines Day & Kung Hei Fat Choi!!! ;)

    The last hour or so has been delicious... It is "Chinese New Year"  (Year of the Tiger) here in Cambodia. The karaoke is blaring and the laughter is ringing, over-riding the music of the neighbours, and the BBQ is wafting throughout the townhouse.

    On the dinner menu was rice, green papaya salad, asian pear and BBQed chicken and beef... which had been marinated in a garlicky, salty and sweet "something"... delish-a-licious.

    While I was eating the now six-years-old, Selina, bestowed a red rose on me! ( haven't been able to figure out how to pivot picts in xanga...)
     

    I came up to my room to enjoy the air conditioning... and blog and just listen to the fun! I had the last one of my Valentine chocolates from the students... I received so many dear little notes! I also had a chinese preserved plum... from Thearey, and it tasted like the best of "Christmas puddings". Yum x 100!

    Chan Pui Mui Preserved Plum (w/seed)

    And speaking of good eats, lunch... today after church with a bunch of other NGO folks, was at Dosa Corner a south Indian place... yum! With an amazing Bollywood production playing on the flat screen that looked like a cross between Dr. Faustus, Aladdin and Dorian Grey with a dash of Cyrano... the Chai, Masala Chicken and Chicken Biriyani are definitely worth going back for!
    I must say I think I'm able to enjoy the best of the west and the exotic tastes of the east...

    Here's a pict from from an adventure a few weeks back... to the former capitol of Cambodia, Oudong. Pray for this place that is at a "crossroads" in it's history... pray the leaders of this nation so rich in history will prioritize protecting the most vulnerable. May the oppressed be hopeful, may there be justice for all and may the love of Christ dwell richly in the hearts of those of us who seek to serve the God of Love and Healing. I spoke to a saffron-robed monk, Rin Bory, in Oudong a language NGO teacher of 35 students he had taken on a field trip. We talked of following the way of the Buddha and the way of Jesus. I pray he enjoys every sort of freedom and that his students find many more employment options available to them because of his efforts to teach them English and French.
      

    I feel well loved... Life is good... Life is beautiful even! I have much to be grateful for.

     So far 2010 is shaping up to be one of the best ever years of my life.

    My prayer is that it might hold exquisite moments of freedom, if not bliss, for you too!